16 Weeks

Join me on this wonderful journey as our family goes from 3 to 4

I'm sorry that I have slipped back into my bad habits of posting every once in a while.  I had done so good for those past couple weeks, but Ah well.   Today I am currently 16 weeks and 5 days.  My next doctors appointment is on Tuesday.
Cravings:  The past couple weeks all I have wanted is Taco Bell.  I am so hungry for it, I cant stand it most days. 
Aversions: Not too many aversions. 
Symptoms: I can feel the baby now when I push on my stomach.   Its a hard little knot and I know its the baby and not my uterus because it moves around when I push on it. 
I am loving: That I'm starting to round out more.  I don't think I look as fat as I did in the past few weeks, but I for sure look pregnant now (or at least I hope that I do.)
Sleep: Completely non-existent at this point.  Leigha and I have been sick with a cold now for most of this past week so between her coughing spells in the middle of the night, my coughing spells and waking up to pee...I'm only getting 4 hours a night, and its a sporadic 4 hours at that.
I miss:  Sleep.  And being able to take medications.
I am looking forward to: Scheduling our gender ultrasound.  I dont know when it is yet, we will make the appointment on Tuesday, but i estimate it to be sometimes around June 18th...when I will be 19 weeks.  Although I am going to really try to get it for June 11th.  I'm being REALLY impatient and if I knew of a way that I could convince Richard to do an elective ultrasound I would totally do it LOL.
I'm spazzing about:  Nothing really.  I still have my moments about 2 kids and all, but I think its getting better.  Millions of women are doing this every day and have been doing it for hundreds of years...surely I can too. 

Best moment this week:  Realizing that I am feeling this baby kick already.  At first I felt flutters, but now I'm feeling kicks.  I know its still too early for Richard to feel it, but I'm enjoying this little one kicking away.  Its much harder than it was with Leigha (than I remember anyways)
Milestones:Nothing that I can think of other than the movement and feeling the baby in my stomach.


Movement: Just a little. 
It's a...: No clue!  But we're CLOSE!!!!
Exercise:   Chasing Leigha.  She has become a hellion now and runs away from me at every request that I make...even getting into her chair and eating. 
Diet: Lots and lots of watermelon, milk and meats...mainly beef and chicken. 

Goals for the upcoming week:  Get rid of this stupid cold!!  And drink more water.

Week 14 update

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This has been a crazy week so far.  Leigha has become more active than ever.  I never thought it would be possible.  She is also testing my patience like never before.  She is hitting and kicking more and its really starting to wear on my nerves, she runs away, doesn't listen, won't walk when holding my hand and just falls so it looks like I'm just dragging her across the floor, she screams non stop when I'm on the phone and has discovered that she can throw things...HARD and I'm usually her target.  I'm just feeling abused and unloved at this point, which is ridiculous I know because its typical toddler behavior but its hard when no one will back me up.  Especially when she hits and kicks me, if there is anyone else in the room, they usually don't say anything, and since she doesn't listen to me...well you get the idea.  

When she gets like this my mind automatically goes to thinking I can't do this with a newborn, and that I don't think I want to go through this stage again.  I'm scared she will hit/kick the new baby, or just basically become a holy terror once he/she comes in November.  I need to figure out a way to calm myself down.  I know this stress isn't good for the baby which is proven because of the Braxton Hicks contractions I've been feeling the past few days.   I have talked to my doctor and she told me I need to rest more.  Kinda impossible with Leigha, but I try.  

Anyways, thanks for listening to my rant...now back to my irregularly scheduled update...

I'm currently 14 weeks and 4 days.  Due 11/12/13
(not entirely sure how that happened.  I just realized I was 14 weeks when I had to call my doctor yesterday...oops!)

Weight Gain:  I'm not going to have this category anymore unless I go to the doctor for an appointment because I just don't weigh myself otherwise.

Cravings:  I haven't noticed any cravings this past week.  Again I just haven't really wanted to eat much.  I kinda wanted taco bell, but not strongly enough to get any.  Although come to think of it I did devour nearly an entire large jar of pickles in 3 days.

Aversions: Chinese. Richard brought some home the other day and while I forced it down, i just really didn't want to eat it.

Symptoms: I'm definitely feeling the baby move a little.

I am loving:  Not much this week....its been a bad week.

Sleep:  I finally got some Unisom so I have slept good the past couple of nights.  Not the best, but better than i have been.

I miss: Feeling normal.  I wanna be back to me.  I'm sure this is all hormonal and has to do with me not having taken my depression meds since finding out about this baby. 

I am looking forward to: Finding out what this little bean is in a couple of weeks.
I'm spazzing about: Still freaking out about 2 kids.  

Best moment this week: Having dinner with my family and sister in law last night for her
birthday.  Not baby related, but still one of the few highlights.

Milestones:Starting to feel movement. 

Movement: Just a little bit.

It's a...: No clue!

Exercise:   Chasing after Leigha

Diet: More water

Goals for the upcoming week: Try to figure out a way to de-stress and drink more water.  I've got to stop these contractions or I'm afraid my doctor will put me on bedrest. :(

Week 13

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I'm currently 13 weeks (and 3 days) and the baby is about the size of a shrimp.  My weeks change over on Tuesdays...but ya'll know I'm lazy and never post anything on time. :D 

Weight Gain:  Starting weight: 232 (Can't believe I just admitted that).  Was at 235 at my last appointment.  Im going to try really hard to not balloon up this time.  My goal for this pregnancy is 20 pound weight gain or less since I weighed so much when I got pregnant.
Cravings: None,  I just don't like food.  Its not that I don't want to eat it, I do, but nothing sounds good.  Of course, Richard says the same thing so I'm sure that its not just a pregnancy thing.

Aversions:  None.  Not that I don't want to eat....Sounds weird with the last one, but I just don't have anything that I can't stand the thought of.
Symptoms:  I am starting to feel my uterus when I push on my stomach.  Definitely a lot earlier than last time.

I am loving: That I can eat again without getting nauseous. 

Sleep:  Whats sleep?  Between having to pee seemingly every hour and Leigha waking up to cry for 10 seconds every couple hours (SO ANNOYING!!)...I'm not getting much. 

I miss:  Having an alcoholic drink if I wanted it.  Today Leigha didn't take a nap so by the end of the day my nerves were shot....all I wanted was a Smirnoff or 2 or 3. :(   Sad to think that I won't be able to have another one of those until at least November 2014 Lord willing.

I am looking forward to: Really feeling the baby move.  I can feel it swimming around in there and settling down into my bladder like Leigha used to...definitely earlier than I did with her too. 

I'm spazzing about: Being a mom to 2 kids...especially when they both are crying and need me at the same time.  Still have my doubts.  Its an issue that I'm trying to work through with my therapist.

Best moment this week:  I got to hear the heartbeat at my appointment.....161.   I saw it through the ultrasound at the last one, but its not the same as hearing it on the Doppler
Milestones:  Could it be considered a milestone if someone that I only see on a VERY occasional basis asked if I was having a baby?


Movement:  Its starting.  The settling is very noticeable and I THINK I may be starting to feel kicks, but I'm not going to call it a certainty yet.  
It's a...: No clue!   I'm still hoping for a boy, but I'm beginning to think Girl.  I've been trying to come up with some good things about having 2 girls so that I don't get upset in the ultrasound room when the time comes...so far I have built in best friends, and sharing clothes...any more that I'm missing?
Exercise:   Chasing Leigha whenever she gets a hold of something that she is not supposed to have....the girl is a scissor magnet, I swear she can get them down off the highest shelf without climbing.  And I've been trying to get down on the floor with her more to play and chase and tickle and teach, even if I just let her climb on me, but I'm really trying to be more active with her including taking her to the park more just so we have some movement.

Diet: Really trying to make an effort to eat more fruits and veggies.  Just ignore the big bowl of ice cream with hot fudge, marshmallow sauce and whipped cream sitting next to me :)  (Remember Leigha didn't nap today)  Oh, and I've been trying to (and succeeding) in drinking a lot more water this week...I hope to keep that up.

Goals for the upcoming week: Drink even more water and try to keep up the healthy eating. 

Day in the life, Spring 2013. Sunday

I figured that since I haven't done a DITL post in so long so at the very last minute (like 7:30 am) I decided to make a DITL post of this day.  I figured I might as well document this spring since Leigha is at such a fun age and I feel like for the most part I have a handle on things. :) 

7:20 am  I wake up having to go to the bathroom, but lay in bed for 10 minutes willing myself to go back to sleep and wait until 8 when Leigha wakes up.

7:30 am snuggle time in the bed with the dogs playing with them because we never get to play with them in the mornings anymore.

8:00 am Leigha wakes up for the morning.  I hear her music player turn on, a sure sign that she is more than ready to start the day.  At least she isn't crying.

8:30 am.  After getting Leigha up and turning on the TV to watch a little of the morning news, Richard tells me that he wants to go to Hope Depot later this morning to get some things and to get breakfast.

9:00 am  Not wanting to get left behind as he is always threatening to do, but I doubt he ever will, I rush to get dressed and get Leigha dressed too.   I manage to remember to get a picture of me, my first belly shot at 11 weeks, 5 days.  Just bloat I'm sure, but already in maternity clothes.  I also get a picture of Leigha's crazy closet.  This girl has SO MANY CLOTHES!!!  Her closet is worse than mine!!  And we're on our way!!

9:10 am We arrive at home depot.  Leigha wants out of the cart so I let her loose in the store the whole time telling her to "Follow Daddy" or "Get Daddy"  She runs after him the whole way.  Its SO cute. (I took a picture even though Richard said no pictures in the store LOL.

9:45 am  Dunkin donuts for breakfast and stopping at the gas station for some milk and OJ because neither of us feel like driving all the way to the grocery store.  We some hungry folks!  She is so excited over them that she dances while she eats the first one until we put her in her high chair so we can eat and then Richard and I both play farmville on facebook for a little while.  

10:45 am  Richard is finished with his breakfast sandwiches, I'm finished with my 4 donuts...they were SO good, I had to treat myself.  And we gave Leigha 2 donuts....we'll regret giving her this ALL afternoon.  Play time for Leigha follows with some operation and a creative way for Richard to keep her out of his Sunday project.

11 ish  While Leigha is playing quietly,I thought I would take the opportunity to try to find the new baby's heartbeat.  I can't find it, Leigha decides to try.  Afterwards we go outside for some playing on the swings and slide and just running around the backyard in general.

12:30  I realize when Leigha is supposed to begetting ready for her nap that I forgot to make her lunch.  Its too late to cook her something, so I scrounge the fridge for some graham crackers, saltines, peanut butter and some cheese cubes and a glass of lemonade.  I later add pineapple for some fruit, but she doesn't eat it.   She eats everything on her plate with the exception of the peanut butter.  She loves the stuff, but apparently isn't used to seeing it like this and she doesn't really know what it is, so she put it in her hair.  You know, because that's where you put things if you don't know what they are. LOL

I heat up some left over chicken and rice.  Its kinda watery so I put in some extra rice that I have and let it sit for a while to absorb the water.  Such a good lunch.

In the mean time Richard is putting a ceiling fan together for her room.  She has never had one before and her room always seems warm and stuffy.  We should have put one in when we were putting the room together before she was here, but we didn't.  Leigha helps after lunch.  She's a regular little miss fix-it.

1:30,  Leigha and I are both done FINALLY so I take her to her room to put her down and she picks out 2 books and then I rock and sing to her and put her in her bed.  She is wide awake and plays in her crib for about 30 minutes.

2:00 pm.  I am laying on the couch and so sleepy so I decided to take a nap.  Leigha is starting to complain in her room by this point, but I have already rocked her, read to her, and I refuse to go back in there until 3.  I'm hoping she settles down but Richard tells me she doesn't. I tell him that if I fall asleep to wake me up at 3

2:50 pm  I wake up on my own on the couch with very large poster pictures frames resting against my legs and newspaper clippings and tickets all over the floor.   Leigha is crying by this point, so I tell Richard to just go get her.  He brings her in the living room and because he is working on his project for his bonus room, I try to keep her on my lap on the couch, but she is not having any of it, so I give her the camera.  It occupies her for about 15 minutes.  I try to bring up some of her favorite song videos on youtube, she's not having that either, so as soon as its safe and I'm able to get up and off the couch, I take her back outside.  This girl would LIVE outside if we let her.  I'm positive of it.

At this second trip outside I forget the camera, but its more of the swing and the slide.  This time though, Leigha pulls out the jogging stroller and pushes it around the driveway.  She discovers that she can push it and walk away and it will roll back to her.  I push it to the 'steeper' part of the driveway and she LOVES that it rolls back to her and just cracks up with belly laughs.  We stay outside for about an hour before coming in for a potty break, after which she discovers the operation game again.  She loves trying to take the things out of the little holes.

4:00 Back outside we go.  More swinging and sliding.  Only this time she decides to show me her cartwheels in which she just puts her head on the ground and sticks her butt in the air LOL.  The little girl next door was doing cartwheels in the backyard a few weeks ago and Leigha started doing that when she would do her cartwheel.  She loves her cartwheels.   She points out airplanes, learns the words Bee, Clouds, Sky, plane, wasp and bird.  She tries to blow the dandelion flowers, but can't quite yet.  We are outside for yet another hour.  Its the ONLY way that I am able to keep her quiet after she has been awake ALL. DAY.  LOOOONG!  :D

5:00 I cook her dinner while Richard entertains her doing something.  She gets what I call butter babies, which is plain macaroni with butter.  I call them butter babies because she gets all buttery whenever she eats them.  I try to get in SOME water today.  This pregnancy, I have been HORRIBLE in my water intake.

5:30, we are eating...well Leigha is eating, I'm eating her left overs, and then after she goes to bed, Richard and I will eat some BBQ.  YUM!!!

6:30, bath time starts.   I let her play while I run her bath and get her bed ready, and get her jammies.  I give her some benadryl because I noticed she has started in with a runny nose today while playing.  I put her on the potty because she has been trying to potty train for about a month or so.  Then its dance party time.  I usually let her dance stark nekkid and its SOOO much cuter but didn't really want that video on the internet, so I threw on a pair of her shorts.  Its still cute.

7:00 quickie bath, light playing, and putting jammies on and she is in bed by 7:30.

7:30, I start the usual playing on the internet, and decide to work on the blog...which I have been doing here and there throughout the day, just typing up little bits and pieces so I don't forget.

Richard is working and I'm in bed about 10.  This computer is being stupid about uploading the pictures to the blog and its taking FOREVER!!!  I finish up this post and then I'm out.  I'm exhausted from this day and from trying to wrangle her around since she never took a nap today.  Rest assured that we will NEVER give her 2 donuts for breakfast again, and definitely NOT iced ones.  LOL.

Night all!

 

11 weeks

Join me on this wonderful journey as our family goes from 3 to 4

Weight Gain: I've lost weight since finding out about this baby.  At the last appointment I weighed 225  Starting weight: 232 (Can't believe I just admitted that).

Cravings:  I haven't been craving much so far,  just meat really.  Last time with Leigha I remember it being hamburgers, but this time its pretty much any kind of meat. Also, like last time, if I crave it and actually manage to eat it, I don't want it any more.

Aversions: Almost all food.  I can only eat something if i have a taste for it.  Sadly this means Richard has been eating lots of hot dogs and pizzas while i've been sustaining on crackers and bread.

Symptoms: I don't really have any symptoms other than bad nausea.  I don't remember it being like this with Leigha.  Its also already uncomfortable sleeping on my stomach like I like to unless i prop myself up on one side.

I am loving: Getting waited on by Richard.  He is very attentive and excited this time around.  He is also very understanding about me feeling sick and not wanting to eat.

Sleep: Horriffic.  I wake up at least 2 times during the middle of the night to use the bathroom and lately because of teething (I think) Leigha is waking up as well.  I'm so tired I can't hardly stand. 

I miss: My energy.  My nausea has started to get a little better over the last couple of weeks, but my energy is still on a downhill spiral.

I am looking forward to: My next appointment on May 7th.

I'm spazzing about: Having a second baby and the labor and caring for a newborn and PPD and the rash that I developed with Leigha happening again.  I'm just a worried mess.

Best moment this week: Nothing really this week other than Leigha took the Doppler that I bought and has figured out how to use it and has started to put it on my stomach.

Milestones: None yet that I can think of unless you count that the kidneys are now functioning.

Movement: Nothing yet.

It's a...: No clue!

Exercise: I did go with my new sister-in-law to a women's trade show at our convention center  and walked around their new house to see it as its getting built.  It was a fun afternoon and I got lots of walking in. 

Diet: I'm just trying to eat something each day, and trying to make it a healthy choice.

Goals for the upcoming week: Start cleaning out the new baby's room which is currently being used as storage. 

Weeks 10, 11, 12 with Leigha

Discoveries

The last few months have been a blur.  Leigha is getting more and more active and vocal and opinionated as the days go by.  I really is quite amazing really how much she is growing and learning new things, which  means I'm learning new things too!!

Discovery #1
I have discovered that she likes to eat by herself.  She's a big fan of eating with spoons and forks, however she still isn't great at actually getting her food into her mouth and most of it ends up in the chair for the dogs to snack on later.  I have also discovered that if I want her to try a new food, I have to let her take it off my plate and eat it herself.  So far she has started eating and loves...banana's, apples, wheat thins with pineapple dip, dill bread dip, pomegranate juice, and CHICKEN!!!  Its only taken me a year and a half to get the girl to eat chicken. 

We were out shopping for fabric no less one day when I realized that lunch was quickly approaching with no time for us to go home and fix something.  I was going to stop and get her a hamburger, which she loves, but the line was crazy long so I looked for the next place.  Chick-fil-a.  And they didn't have a line in the drive thru at lunch, not really sure what was going on, but I decided to treat us and took FULL advantage before the cars started piling in (I have NEVER seen a Chick-fil-a in this area without a huge line when its open).  Long story short, I got Leigha a chicken strip meal, gave her the chicken and she started eating it like she had loved it all her life.  Such a weird child that I have.

Discovery #2
She has also stated potty training herself.  Its not something that I"m entirely ready for because I'm not that confident in my abilities to understand her if she tells me she has to go, but I don't want to hinder the progress either.  One night before her bath I took off her clothes and she ran to the potty.  I put her on it thinking she wanted to see what goes on, but she went potty and has every night since, and occasionally during the day as well, (both #1 and #2)  So I have ordered a potty online and am in the hunt for size 2t panties. 

Discovery #3
We have discovered that Leigha is going to be a BIG SISTER!!  :D   Contrary to what I posted a few months back on the blog about trying for another baby in December...we weren't trying.  I wanted to finish my depression meds and fully wrap my head around the idea of becoming a mom to 2 children.  But nonetheless we are SO very happy about this, even though I have my moments of panic.   I am currently 11 weeks, 2 days and my due date is 11/12/13.  Pretty cool due date if I do say so myself.  I've been to the doctor a couple times and nothing really exciting to report.  I've seen our little gummy bear at 9 weeks and its right on schedule.  It has a heartbeat of 178 which is MUCH higher than Leigha was at this stage I believe.  I'm going to have to look back and see if I can find out and remember what it was. 

I wasn't going to say anything on the blog until 12 weeks, but so many of the moms that I follow on blogs and friends on facebook have announced a pregnancy this week (I think there were 6 this week alone) that I just had to jump in on the fun and excitement too!!!  :D 

Things Leigha says and does

Between working on making toddler chairs for my etsy store and watching Leigha and doing the normal household stuff, I don't have that much time to blog anymore.  Leigha is growing up SO STINKIN FAST! that I just want to document this super fun age of 18 months that she is at now.

She started walking about 2 months ago and she is starting to run and starting to figure out jumping  She LOVES to jump in her crib by holding on the rails, and she tries to when standing in the middle of a room.

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If we leave the child lock off the under the sink cabinet that contains all the cleaning supplies, she will take off one side and bring it to us, or just start fiddling with it if we are in the kitchen to bring it to our attention because she knows its supposed to be locked. 

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She is starting to learn to feed herself with a spoon which I'm super freaked out about because of the inevitable mess, but she is starting to not eat when we feed her, so we kinda don't have a choice in the mater.

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She is starting to have an opinion of what she wants to eat and drink and knows where those items are kept and will point and squeal when she wants them.  We're working on more pointing and less squealing since its SO high pitched and so freakin LOUD!!!

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She has all of a sudden shown a HUGE interest in watching Dora and Team Umizomi.  She loves them which keeps her fairly occupied for an hour or so.  She even likes the backpack song on Dora and will sing "Backpack, backpack" even though its more like Bap-ba Bap-ba

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She LOVES to push her baby doll in the baby stroller she got for Christmas.  Its probably her most favorite activity next to 'talking' on pretend phones.  She doesn't like to talk on real ones with people on the other end.  I think their voice coming through freaks her out. 

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Unfortunately she likes to hit us with things.  We are working on that and whenever she does it we tell her no and brush our faces with our hand and say 'nice' so lately after she hits she will brush our face and say "Niii"

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She says Mmmmm-ah when she gives kisses and ooooh and pats our back when she hugs us.  She says Ahhh-um when she eats,  and shakes her head when she does something that she knows is wrong

THINGS LEIGHA SAYS

This girl has such a big vocabulary I'm shocked. 

Mommy (Mama), Daddy (Daa-d), Bye, Dog, Ruff (arf), Quack (Cack), Hot, No, Yeah, Guys, Allie (Ahhh-be), Espn (Dito) which is a nickname that we always calls him, but she whispers Espn very well), Juice (Ju-sh), Backpack, Uh-oh, Love you (Ub oooh), Hi, Butter babies (Buh-ba) which are buttered macaroni noodles that she loves to eat for lunch, Fish (Ishies), Good Girl (Gooh gah) Lets go (Eh oooo) Stop (Stah), and Hi Baby.  That's all that I can think of at this moment in time LOL. 

Holy cow I wish she wasn't growing up so fast, but I totally wouldn't change it for the world.  I think back to last year when she was just starting to sit up by herself and I just can't believe what a difference a year makes.  

I promise I'm alive

This past month and a half have been a doozy.  Life in general has taken me by the feet and wacked me on the pavement a few times.  Its not pretty.

I started getting sick towards the end of October.  I wouldn't say I was sick  persay, I just felt off.  Well then comes Halloween and I'm finally (after 2 weeks of feeling off) I am sick as a dog.  Literally can't get out of the bathroom calling Richard begging him to come home from work to take care of Leigha, sick.  I can't even take Leigha trick or treating and I still haven't gotten a picture of her in her costume (she was supposed to be an angel)

During all this I still have to get ready for a craft fair that I had entered.  I somehow make it through it, but ended up losing money.  Not a happy camper about this, but it happens.

I end up being sick on and off for the next couple of weeks.  Believe you me, I took SEVERAL pregnancy tests during that time because I just don't get sick like that, but they were ALL negative.

Then comes Thanksgiving.  We decide to take our first road trip to visit family in Memphis.  We get a hotel room and request a crib.  They give us a pack-n-play with no pad.  They just put blankets over the supports rendering it completely useless, so I have to co-sleep with Leigha who has never co-slept before except for maybe a couple hours at a time when she was a newborn and I accidentally fell asleep nursing her.  Turns out she is not my favorite sleeping partner. I truly think Richard got the better end of the deal by sleeping in the other bed while I slept with the wiggly one. 

Come back home and I'm sick again.  Its not fun.  Leigha has an ear infection now and has been battling with a cold for the last month.  She can't sleep well and therefore neither can I, and I truly think that my sickness can be attributed to lack of sleep because my parents came over one day and thankfully watched Leigha for a few hours while I slept and when I woke up I felt MUCH better.  

All this while I'm still taking orders for and making my toddler chairs and nursing covers and such for my store and friends babies and trying to decorate for Christmas and do the dishes (during all this my dishwasher decided it had enough and went kaput) and feed everyone and visit who needs visiting and call whoever needs calling and all the other countless household chores and I haven't even found time to change out of my PJ's most of the time. 

I think I need a few more me's

Let me know when they perfect the cloning process, I'll be the first one standing in line to clone myself LOL.

I'm off to keep sewing chairs.  Pray for my sanity please, I'm going to need it.  I'll do more updates sooner or later hopefully.

Discussions discussions.

The other night Richard and I were sitting at home trying to relax and play with Leigha for a little bit before she went to bed.  Well I was relaxing, he was playing.  He was across the room she was on her back and he was tickling her.  Just on a whim I asked him if he wanted to try to have another baby.

I said it in that "hey wanna freak my husband out" kinda moment.  Catch him while he's soft and playing with Leigha LOL.  Kinda like Monica did to Chandler when they decided they wanted to try to have a baby while Rachel was having Emma. (Sorry, that episode was on the other day, and I am a Friends FANATIC!) 

Wanna know what his response was? 

"Sure but we aren't trying yet, last time we did that we had Leigha and I don't want to have another kid in July so we'll try in December and then the baby will be born in August." 

UMMMM, WHAT?!?!?!

Last time I talked to him about it he didn't even want to mention it.  I'm kinda freaking out here.  I had thought we were on the same page and were going to wait till Leigha turned 2 before trying for a second.  Wow.

I don't really know how I feel about it.  I'm excited, because I want him to want more children, which clearly he does, but then I think back to the depression and I don't know if I want to try soon.  Clearly I need to talk to him about this LOL.   I have a little, but not much.  I also think I need to talk to my therapist about it too.  (That is going well too by the way.  The medicine is helping me see things a little more clearly and feel more at ease about things and not get frustrated as easily)

So what is the ideal age difference between kids?  2 years, 3 years, more?  I know its different for everyone, but maybe some of your insight will help me to not freak out so much.   I don't know anyone personally who has kids with an age difference.  All of my friends only have 1 kid at the moment. 

Sorry

Umm yeah, I just kinda fell off the face of the earth.

Since I started my Etsy shop things have kinda taken off.  I have sold several chairs, have orders for more and have several orders for blankets and burp cloths.  Between shopping for fabric and making things and taking care of Leigha and trying to find out if I get my unemployment from my other job (yeah, they still haven't decided that yet and its been almost 2 months) getting ready for my brother's wedding in 3 weeks (Yikes!) planning a wedding shower for my soon to be new sister, Leigha getting sick, and just taking care of normal everyday stuff, its been a little crazy. 

I've been asked to paint a painting for their wedding which I am almost finished with it.  How nerve wracking.  Its a painting that they will have forever that everyone will see.  Thankfully I'm not in the wedding or I don't know what I will do with myself, I may just go nuts.

So I'm sorry. 

Leigha is doing well.  She will be 14 months next Monday.  This may be my favorite age.  I wasn't keen on the 1-6 months because well, I just don't like guessing games, and the first month of course I was just so in love and jaded with my little squishy newborn.  7 months she started crawling so it got a little better, but recently she has begun to tell me what she wants.  If she wants cheerios, she brings me her snack trap.  If she wants juice, she brings me her cup.  She will point at the things that she wants so its much easier to figure out what she wants.

She definitely has a temper and will either bite or spit at you if she doesn't get her way.  Thankfully we have almost curbed the biting, and I can handle the spitting for now. 

She still only has the 2 bottom teeth.  Every once in a while she will have a run of super bad sleep or crankiness where she constantly chews on her hands, so we constantly are thinking that she is teething, but nothing shows up.  I'm beginning to wonder if she will only have the bottom teeth forever. 

She has gotten a little cold this past week and an ear infection, which thankfully we caught before it was too bad.  This little sickness doesn't seem to phase her though.  She is still as feisty as ever. 

She has also started to copy us.  If we put our hands in the air, she does too, she will dance when we do, tilt her head, scream, etc.  Its just gotten so fun to watch her little mind work.

She has not started walking yet, but its close I think.  She has taken a couple of steps a couple of times but only after Richard has been playing with her and has her super worked up so she doesn't realize that she is doing it, so I know its not that far off. 

I'm doing good too.  Super busy with my store, and I have been doing good with my PPD as well.  I've gone to see my therapist a couple of times and she is pleased with my progress and my level of motivation.  I do feel like myself more and more every day, and I'm finally setting a goal of losing 70 pounds.  Its something I should have done a long time ago, and this time I have some help in the form of the wife of an old high school friend LOL.  She is a very healthy eater and very in shape and has offered to help me out.  I have never had a problem with weight till now, and didn't really know how to do it effectively, so she has given me some plans to work on.

All in all things are good.  Just living life, working hard and hardly working.  I hope I didn't loose what few readers I did have in the last month that I have been gone LOL.

Hope you have a good evening.