Random things

• So this blog is to document my pregnancy, but maybe I'm letting it become too baby related and not so much a part of me and how I'm doing with this whole thing.  I think that I am gonna try posting more to help that out because I think it will force me to talk about something other than updates every few weeks, which if you don't know me can probably get a little boring. 

• I can't stop itching.  It is driving me NUTS!!!  My stomach my boobs, my arms, hips, back....they all itch.  No amount of lotion stops it.  No hydrocortizone cream helps either.  I am at a loss as to what to do.  I told Richard about it and was scratching periodically throughout the night.  Good news kinda is that it has turned into a form of entertainment for him, he spent nearly the entire night laughing at me and calling me a monkey LOL.  (He's not truly an ass I promise, he thinks he's trying to help by making me laugh and taking my mind off it and putting it onto how funny I look....it didn't work, he got several dog toys thrown at his head, all of which missed which just made him laugh harder).  He did at one point try to be sweet and scratch my stomach for me, but of course when you itch, and someone else tries to scratch it for you, they just can't do as good of a job as you can as weird as it sounds. LOL 

•  I'm gassy...I will get up after eating or drinking something other than water and I can let out a belch that will make my Dad proud and wake the dead.  I think its funny because I have that really weird sense of humor, Richard thinks its gross (how backwards is that). 

•  I'm getting really nervous about Wednesday.  That's the day of the big ultrasound.  At first this whole boy girl thing was a fun thing to tease Richard about.  He really wants a boy because he wants to be able to play rough and teach them how to play football and basketball, and he says he still wants to be young enough to do it while he still can (He's only 37, but with the way he talks you would swear he's 60, he's a big Drama King).  I want a little girl who will idolize her father and wrap him around her little finger (really I don't care as long as its healthy), but I want a girl.  I think it would be great.  But lately I have been second guessing myself and thinking its a boy.  I don't know why I'm going back on my gut feeling, but I just am.  Well all that and finding out will make it all the more real. 

•  I think that I have been feeling it move.  It seems a lot lower than where I would imagine it to be, but I think that I have felt it.  It usually is like gas bubbles after I eat, but I don't have to fart (sorry, TMI, but it happens) or anything like that, so what else could it be besides the baby.  I have been able to tell for a while where its at when I am sitting or lying down, but I don't usually feel it move there....I don't know its hard to explain.  But it is a good thing if I can feel it move into certain places but not feel kicks yet right?  I still worry that something has happened and the doc has made a mistake with the Doppler thing especially since all the emails that I have been getting say that I should be feeling kicks by now.   

Baby and life update (Week 17)

Now that I'm unemployed again (Oh Joy!!!) I need to get better at posting more.  Its not like I have a whole lot of things to occupy my time right now anyway other than the constant job applications and testing and such.  I need to do more research though, a way of kinds of updating my skills without taking a class and paying out money we don't exactly have anymore. 

One of my friends has asked me if I am becoming depressed.  I don't know, I suppose I am a little.  Its tough knowing that no income is coming in except maybe a 1/4 to a 1/3 of what I would normally make thanks to unemployment.  I have applied with a temp agency and they are "supposed" to be looking for something for me, but I seriously doubt it.  I mean who would want to hire a woman who is 4+ months pregnant.  So I suppose that yeah, I am a little.  I think I just need to get out and do some free things to brighten my day. 

OK, on to happier things like my BABY!  :)  It always makes me smile, even if I am freaking out.

Weight Gain: None, although, I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight, and I can sense the scale is about to start going up any day now.  Especially with all the milk and icecream that I am eating to try to help ease this sore throat I have.

Symptoms:  I feel GREAT!!!  I am tired sometimes, but I think that has to do with the fact that I spend all day in front of the computer sending out resume's.  Computers can be draining too.

 

Cravings:  MILK.  Well all dairy really, but milk especially.  I can't get enough of it.  I seriously went through an entire gallon in 3 days (would have been 2 if we had been home yesterday evening).  I don't want to go insane with it, but if it was all there was to drink in the house, I wouldn't be complaining LOL

 

Aversions:  Just Mexican. which I hate because I could have eaten it every single day if I could, till now that is.

 

I am loving:  That I can feel him/her.  I can't feel kicks I don't think, sometimes I think I feel it wiggling around but it always stops right when I notice it, so I think its all in my head, but there are times when I am sitting or lying down and I can totally feel a little ball move over my hip, its worse after I have eaten, and its really uncomfortable, but its kinda exciting.  Hopefully soon he/she will be big enough that it can't get stuck between my big belly and hips  (BTW my mom says it sounds like I am carrying low because of that)

 

I miss:  Being able to eat what I want when I want.  Now there are so many rules...no caffeine (which I limit myself, but still) No lunch meat, etc.  I miss my food.

I am looking forward to:  Finding out what it is.  We find out next Wednesday afternoon.  I am so excited!!!  I had said before that things were going by so fast, and now that couldn't be further from the truth.  The days are DRAGGING by!!!   

I'm spazzing about:  Finding out in a week!  Its happening so fast!  Wasn't it just a couple of days ago that I was peeing on a stick and trying not to freak out while telling Richard about the baby? 

 

Milestones: We have a crib.  It makes it all the more surreal to come into the house and see the crib sitting there next to the back door.   (Its not in the baby's room because we are using it as storage until next week.  Richard wants to wait to do anything with it until we find out what it is.  Not my first option, but I really don't want him to freak out so I agreed, I just hope he doesn't get too overwhelmed with stuff to do.  Good thing I have parents who I can call who can do things for him when he has to stay at work for hours on end.)  

 

OH and I am in full on maternity clothes.  Some regular clothes, but all maternity pants.  I got the ones with the fully panel and Richard finds them COMPLETELY hilarious and ugly, but I just can't convince him how comfy they are.

Movement:  Sometimes I can feel it moving around, but no kick yet that I can tell.  I felt one "poke" once, but not since, so I am doubting that was what I really felt.  I wanna feel a KICK!  I even told the baby last night that it can feel free to kick me hard any day now.  I wont mind it till later, I just wanna know its really in there and I'm not imaging all this.

 

It's a...: Dot still (well bigger than a dot, but I haven't seen it since week 8, so its still a dot)  7 more days!!!!!

Exercise:  Back to lying in bed all day.  especially since I'm trying to get over being sick with that crappy cold that's going around.  I'll beat it and once it gets nice I plan on spending LOTS of time outside.  Monday its supposed to be 70!!!!  LOL.  

 

Side note:  I am trying to figure out how to add pictures on here.  As soon as I do, I will add pictures to these.