Join me on this wonderful journey as our family goes from 3 to 4
This has been a crazy week so far. Leigha has become more active than ever. I never thought it would be possible. She is also testing my patience like never before. She is hitting and kicking more and its really starting to wear on my nerves, she runs away, doesn't listen, won't walk when holding my hand and just falls so it looks like I'm just dragging her across the floor, she screams non stop when I'm on the phone and has discovered that she can throw things...HARD and I'm usually her target. I'm just feeling abused and unloved at this point, which is ridiculous I know because its typical toddler behavior but its hard when no one will back me up. Especially when she hits and kicks me, if there is anyone else in the room, they usually don't say anything, and since she doesn't listen to me...well you get the idea.
When she gets like this my mind automatically goes to thinking I can't do this with a newborn, and that I don't think I want to go through this stage again. I'm scared she will hit/kick the new baby, or just basically become a holy terror once he/she comes in November. I need to figure out a way to calm myself down. I know this stress isn't good for the baby which is proven because of the Braxton Hicks contractions I've been feeling the past few days. I have talked to my doctor and she told me I need to rest more. Kinda impossible with Leigha, but I try.
Anyways, thanks for listening to my rant...now back to my irregularly scheduled update...
I'm currently 14 weeks and 4 days. Due 11/12/13
(not entirely sure how that happened. I just realized I was 14 weeks when I had to call my doctor yesterday...oops!)
Weight Gain: I'm not going to have this category anymore unless I go to the doctor for an appointment because I just don't weigh myself otherwise.
Cravings: I haven't noticed any cravings this past week. Again I just haven't really wanted to eat much. I kinda wanted taco bell, but not strongly enough to get any. Although come to think of it I did devour nearly an entire large jar of pickles in 3 days.
Chinese. Richard brought some home the other day and while I forced it down, i just really didn't want to eat it.
Symptoms: I'm definitely feeling the baby move a little.
I am loving: Not much this week....its been a bad week.
Sleep: I finally got some Unisom so I have slept good the past couple of nights. Not the best, but better than i have been.
I miss: Feeling normal. I wanna be back to me. I'm sure this is all hormonal and has to do with me not having taken my depression meds since finding out about this baby.
I am looking forward to: Finding out what this little bean is in a couple of weeks.
I'm spazzing about: Still freaking out about 2 kids.
Best moment this week: Having dinner with my family and sister in law last night for her
birthday. Not baby related, but still one of the few highlights.
Milestones:Starting to feel movement.
Movement: Just a little bit.
It's a...: No clue!
Exercise: Chasing after Leigha
Diet: More water
Goals for the upcoming week: Try to figure out a way to de-stress and drink more water. I've got to stop these contractions or I'm afraid my doctor will put me on bedrest. :(